alas its only a mere 3 days till i leave and frankly im not looking forward to it. im actually looking forward to getting it over and done with so i can finally move on to the hobie.

new harness!
yea.. anyway.. been slowly packing my bag and every time i look at it i say to myself,"Damn is this really my bag?? Its HUGE."

im not used to carrying such big luggage around let alone spend my trip with 14 other loony characters. so yes. fendi = not used to carrying big bags.

have you guys heard the new my chemical romance song?
-i dont love you-

its so cliche yet, i love it.

the words are very emotional and bring tat "wow" in a song. and every time i listen to tat song, it makes me wanna think of her. and yet. i still do love her.

here are the lists of songs that constantly remind me of her:

1. Its not over - Chris Daughtry

5. Just enough to love you - Bayside

so yes, every time i hear these few songs, i cant help but keep remembering of that saturday. that saturday when she made me the happiest guy on earth. although it was only a few hours of arcade, a movie (ms potter i rmb..), the a slow walk to her bus stop and a long, intimate bus ride to her home.. how can someone forget smth like tat? its basically impossible to do so. so what she has done is, etched the memory into my heart, played me on for a few more days then leave me to rot. surely such a small, cute, perfect girl couldnt do this to me? its just strange i tell u.

its the way her eyes sparkle each time i gaze into them.

its the way her soft silky hair gets blown with the wind.
its the way her smooth soft skin touches mine.
its the way shes more ticklish than me.
its the way her name just rolls off my tongue.
its the way she looks at me through the top of her glasses.

its the way she whispered sweet words into my ears those times we were alone.

she left me with nth but memories, a rotting heart and a scratch on my left forearm.

the scar still remains. i serves as a memory of her. as long as that scar is there, she will forever be in my mind and heart.

she's my inspiration. the reason why i live on. the reason why i sail hard.

and the reason why im gonna win worlds.