this post shall be devoted to anything emo cuz well, i feel that way today.

cuz she point blank ignored me today.

has anyone heard of the song Chop Suey by System Of A Down?
they have such emo phrases which i should point out as follows:

"Well I don't think you trust in
My self-rightous suicide
Why cry when angels
Deserve to die"

such strong, passionate words used.
also,

"Father, into your hands
I command my spirit
Father, into your hands
Why have you forsaken me
In your eyes
Forsaken me in your thoughts
Forsaken me in your hearts
Forsaken me"

these lines never fail to bring me back to life. every single time i hear this song i just feel like i actually dont lead a happy life and i can list down a few reasons below;

1. The feeling of constant loneliness never fails to linger over me.
2. I am not rich. Repeat: I AM NOT RICH.
3. The love of my life is barely talking to me. Let alone come near me.
4. I don't even know if i have real friends or not.
5. My life revolves around one thing: SAILING. Without it i'm nothing.

wad a hazardous life i lead.

The thing that sucks is that i carry on with my life as though it is pretty good when its not.

I have people coming up to me and saying;

wow.. 7 regattas to your name fen..

or

ooh.. going worlds fen..

or

damn.. goin hobie fen..

or

walau.. top byte sailor fen..

BUT CMON. WAD DO THEY ALL HAVE IN COMMON?
one word

SAILING

isnt it a lil bit on the boring side? i mean geez. im a good sailor so wad. i can name u a few f-ing good sailors.

Justin/Sherm
Nick DeCruz - Byte World Champ 06
Colin Cheng - Asian Games 06 Gold Medalist

These are the people that should be UP THERE. We should all look up to them. And they all have one thing in common. They are all really humble. Never arrogant.

so there.
ive spoken my peace.

"Champions are MADE, not BORN."

till next time.. cheerios..