Woke up with a terrble headache and dragged my ass to the toilet only to realise that it was already 845 and i had to chiong to school. At least class was fun though =) Mr K was sooo funny today made me smile abit even though i was still feeling like shit. Trying to hide all these emotions just make it worse knowing that one can only keep it in him, not to show the world the misery of a lost soul wandering the streets in between happiness and depression. But heck, what can i do anyway? I've been training like hell, trying to improve myself but it all ends up in no avail as i keep failing and failing, falling into the depths of sadness as day after day i seem to remain unaware of the harm i'm doing to myself.

All sorts of lame and unhappy thoughts keep running in my head as each day i come home and lie on my bed hoping that it would help. Now i know that the whole sailing thing is bullshit to others but to me that little thing can really wear a guy down, let alone me, the guy with immense mood swings as to that of a female. And on the other hand i still can't stand the fact that i can't break myself away from my emotions. It sucks having to go through this nonsense. Now i know why some people go gay. (Don't confuse it, i'm not gay. Despite the gold phone and tigger pouch.)

So yeah. Guys do cry after all.