Day 2 without you really really sucked too. I had to go to california fitness in like the morning. First thing in the morning when i woke up was like... "damn. i wasn't on the phone with her.. oh ya. she's having all the fun in the world in thailand." its like even watching friends doesnt make me smile. its like, trng today was alright, my shins hurt again but like trng without seeing you there is like so un satisfactory. usually i'd have a bad day and the only thing that'd make me happy was to see you everytime i train. somemore once your back from thailand, ur season is over and you'll be having a break from trng. so either way, I LOSE. =( this isn't working. i can't even pay attention in class properly. haiz... i'll msg u agn later i guess. see if u had fun. betcha did.

i will never let you fall... i'll stand up with you forever... i'll be there for you through it all... even if saving you sends me to heaven...

Day 1 of you gone has been terrible. i couldn't sleep well once i got home. it was as though someone was tugging on my intestines, not allowing my body to be at rest. despite the fact that i had stayed up the whole night till morning just to be with you (plus your father) for those short minutes... it hurts to see you go. even if its only a mere week. time has passed even slower and ive been staring into space too much. it is as though i have no reason at all to be here. all i want is to have you in the country. to see you everyday in the dining hall despite the fact that we dont talk. all i want is to have you by my side. the bus journey back was so cold and lonely without you by my side and i simply cannot express how much i adore you right now.

its not the amount of love you have for someone when they are there. but its the amount of love you have when they are gone. absence makes the heart grow fonder. i need you...

meh smth suddenly made me change my mind about giving life back to this blog. thnx though.