Day 1 of you gone has been terrible. i couldn't sleep well once i got home. it was as though someone was tugging on my intestines, not allowing my body to be at rest. despite the fact that i had stayed up the whole night till morning just to be with you (plus your father) for those short minutes... it hurts to see you go. even if its only a mere week. time has passed even slower and ive been staring into space too much. it is as though i have no reason at all to be here. all i want is to have you in the country. to see you everyday in the dining hall despite the fact that we dont talk. all i want is to have you by my side. the bus journey back was so cold and lonely without you by my side and i simply cannot express how much i adore you right now.

its not the amount of love you have for someone when they are there. but its the amount of love you have when they are gone. absence makes the heart grow fonder. i need you...