let me rephrase. one homework done, two to go.
-gimme a race car. i'll speed thru singapore's roads anytime.

let the music cast you into eternal slumber...
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one down, two to go. the mad rush for the 3rd of october.

you bastard. cross me again and i'll kill you. heed the warning.

... rasa yang kutinggal mati...
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who's holding the gun now?

What a wonderful day for an ice bath. Oh wait, i am doing an ice bath. Haha. Hmm, other than that i think the only thing I've left to do is chiong Peggy's essay then Dr John's workshops then Peggy's presentation. I'm not worried about the presentation so i left that till last. Haha. Irony or so it may seem. Leaving home for school soon. Catcha on the flipside~

Love me or hate me for who i am, not for who i am not. Judge me for what i actually do and not what i claim to do. This is my way of life and that is just who i am. Who am i to say that i may not be the best person in the world though i may sometimes egoistically portray an image as such. It is with that same unrivaled ego that i frown upon my actions portrayed before my friends and most importantly her. For i am an avenger, forever hating myself for my past actions. Despite the fact that i know that i should not dwell on the past but the past is what drives me forward into the future. It is the present that gives us the way to control our lives and shape our future somewhat. Actions don't run your life but it's the thoughts which create those actions that do.
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I feel like I'm trapped in sabaku kyuu. I just hope sabaku sousou doesn't happen. Though I'm feeling that it's pretty close to actually happening. Lame yeah, i think i kinda know.

Hmm, imagine playing a 1 hour song over an over again for 3 straight hours. Oh yeah. The song is way awesome but its super huge so its quite hard to let you people hear it but those who know VirtualDJ and its wonders. Anyway, yesterday + today trng was fun. =) Played soccer some more. However, it is quite a sad day for all Reactivees cause our head coach is leaving us for 2 weeks for an ECU Perth stint. Nevertheless, we will still train hard and follow his guidelines =) The new ultimate ninja heroes psp game is out yo! Got it liaoz. Some phantom thingy but yeah, not much difference from the first one despite fact that i still can't clear that stupid last level. Anyway, gonna have Vivienne's class in the morning then lepak in sch for 3 hours den do gym (again) i suppose. Gah. I train so hard. Where are my darn results. Haiz.
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The balloon is almost fully healed but they're still patches =(

Darn, so much rest for this weeks training. =( Despite the stupid strain i still want to run! I can't just sit back and do nothing about it. As in like, i don't mind doing extra gym and stuff but i want to run! But nevertheless i should not doubt Alfred's training. So yeah, rest week for me then. Good also ah cause its the last week of fasting + training including next week's Monday and Tuesday. So out of seven days i have 2 days of full rest so i guess i should use that time to study really hard or attempt to begin on Peggy's essay and John Tan's workshops. Darn it. Procrastination.
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Anyway, last night was one of the worst few nights I've ever had. As in it was seriously quite bad cause I was like really down and feeling like crap? Everyday I disappoint her. I suck siolz.

It's like as if you've already eaten dinner and your full, but then you spot a tub of ben & jerry's and don't know whether to have a bite or not. What a feeling.

My enjoyable saturday at johor just got ruined. And i havent even left home. Sheesh. If only i knew sooner. Maybe i wouldn't have been such a dick. Stop the fucking stereotyping.

awesome popping vid, watch till the end.

Hmm, the red envelopes have gone out, now all i gotta do is wait for the RVSPs so yupp, confirm soon yeah peeps? =) Don't worry it's gonna be awesome but shhhh doncha go round telling your frens aight? Haha. Hmm, I'm heading to malaysia tomorrow to do some shopping and umm stuff? Gonna break fast there =) yupp. I dunno wassup with my family but i think they have smth about hotels and i think im getting the virus too haha. Hotels rock! Anyway, nothing new so far except for fasting's coming to an end, boyce avenue did a cover of chris brown's forever, ronaldo's back but manu drew villareal. Pffrt. I think i rate this week 6/10. Darn.
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I'm sad. Darn. Life's greatest black hole: Love.

Someway somehow, i can't escape this.
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Hanging by a thread, the noose snaps, saving my life yet leaving me crashing to the floor.
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How much do you want me?

LOL

just some weymouth sailing pics =)

wahahaha full battle armor. yet i was still cold. =(

wah im damn bored. im actually browsing websites and looking at phones. pffrt. i know i should be doin john tans workshops but ah heck. life's too short. anyone up for a game of soccer or tennis? gahh this sucks. hmm tmr, tuesday, thursday CF. gonna finish my hours by this week. awesome... =) no more burden liaoz yeah gotta love it. then again, gonna miss the peeps there. =) tmr trng worx. speed.

omg i dun think i have anything else in my life that i want! 0_0 thats just... very weird of me.. i usually always have smth i want. oh no.... wads happening to me. damn. hows siolz. anyway my cough aint getting any better so maybe got infection or smth. tmr gonna see da doc. jialat sia. whole day ok until break fast time then i took like chocos and stuff then now liddat again. SIANZZZ. =(

bleagh... everyone is feeling depressed. cmon guys cheer up! da weekend is here! think positive and what you desire shall you recieve one way or another.

whahah the test was great success. then the essay was NICE =) haha now i supaaaa free already just gotta print the darn thing out. pffrt. lalala waiting for usop to finish so we can go solatz jumaat =) haha. yeah yeah yeah! but i feel super lethargic. slept only 2 plus hours last nite after studying for the test. haha. diaoz.... i nvr bring thumb drive sia. gahhh. darn. oh wells see yazz.

this week? pretty messed up..... monday test was uhhhh. ah wells screw da test. then trng almost puke. tues was umm interesting? cuz it was the day after that incident and it felt weird. then weds was bahh. morning class afternoon at home with SL. den like i slept so much didnt actually watch or do anth haha. so yeah. bummerz to do week man..
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it just sucks knowing that she's feeling that way and that i'm the cause of all this. it just sucks knowing that she trusts me so much and i fail her. it just sucks knowing that last year she was just one of the few loud and cute lil sec 1s right behind the sailors table. it sucks knowing that if aaron hadn't asked me for a favor i wouldn't have known her. geez. i damn thick skin siol.
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what are the odds that 7 months later i'd do smth like tat. heh. tat shocked even me. yupp but nevertheless i'm doing my best to do ANYTHING i can to like ummm lose tat feeling? my head full of mixed thoughts. newtons three laws.. lit review.. my girl.. fasting.. there should be a limit to how much torture ur brain can take (and in my case the heart too). gah. fasting's been messing with my thoughts. SLEEP FEN SLEEP.

i cant believe i've only be in class for about 10 mins and i already lost focus and lost track. dear god please help me man. i NEED to focus after the test this afternoon. trng today ah... uhh.... glad to be running again but DAMN i almost PUKED. So i didnt do the last 80. i feel so bad. but i really didnt want to puke so neak break fast time. so i apologize to alfred for not finishing trng. =(

What does it feel like to be caught in the middle? Well for damn sure i know what it feels like. Hmmm, Anyway, i already told myself to not let it distract me. And a good friend has told me to not dwell on it. =) Think positive!
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What things soever ye desire, when ye pray, believe
that ye receive them, and ye shall have them
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So... That must mean... hmmm... =)
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I'm finally back to training again. Can't wait! But Monday's program looks rough. Nevermind i shall fight! I have not sprinted for too damn long! Haha. Yeah, i'm a nutcase =X

hmm yesterday was pretty dull if i must comment on it. other than the fight, i think, i THINK i might have flunked my test but other than that i guess im aight. didnt do alot last night other than fighting so pffrt. couldnt sleep very well either so ended up sleeping at 4. gahh. my sleeping patterns are screwed up. help me....

this week was real fun till i had to start studying. so booooo studying. anyway, i just realized im not studying for 2 tests but 3! haha yes. i totally forgot abt john tan's test next wednesday. Oh wells. 4bia on monday night, thonned on tuesday morning, shopping and haircut with my sis on tuesday afternoon, rest day on weds, attemted to study on thursday and failed miserably. friday test. BUGGER. anyway, what a week. fun fun fun. plus the fact that its gonna be a PRETTY dull weekend for me, i'm probably up for grabs. anyone wanna chillz? like jason mraz says "i'm yours."