sometimes, some people just need a little time to let their emotions free, to let out all their feelings bottled up deep down inside. sometimes, things don't seem to go the way you would like it to go when you know it should actually be heading that way. sometimes, there's a special someone who enters your life and turns it upside down, be it better or worse. but sometimes, some people just have to shut their eyes and revamp a new chapter of their life.

moments in time where one might feel overjoyed with the vicarious ways that life brings such randomness into their lives. it is with this current state of mind: lost and confused but somehow able to keep my cool; i have slowly come to the conclusion that i cannot feel this way anymore. i still have 1 year and 8 months to go in my ns life and i for one am afraid for whats to come. fear has brought me to my knees and has left me with a void to fill by myself. fear has left me so blank inside.

each time i pray i ask for god to show me the way. but i think that even He cannot give me an answer because only i can choose my future. it is with this confusion that i carry on with the next chapter of my life, hoping to never turn around and regretting my past.

this may all sound pretty effing emo-ish but feeling a little emo-ish at the moment so yeah.

tmr shall be the final test to answer everything i needed to know.